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1 October 2004 - African Soul

African Soul
               Anonymous


   Within my soul, within my mind,
   There lies a place I cannot find,
   Home of my heart, Land of my birth,
   Smoke-coloured stone and flame-coloured earth,
   Electric skies, Shivering heat.
   Blood-red clay beneath my feet.

   At night when finally alone,
   I close my eyes - and I am home,
   I kneel and touch the blood-warm sand,
   And feel the pulse-beneath my hand,
   Of an ancient life too old to name,
   In ancient land too wild to tame,

   How can I show you what I feel?
   How can I make this essence real?
   I search for words in dumb frustration,
   To try and form some explanation,
   But how can heart and soul be caught,
   In one-dimensional written thought?

   If love and longing are a "fire",
   And man "consumed" by his desire,
   Then this love is no simple flame,
   That mortal thought can hold or tame,
   As deep within the earth's own core,
   The love of home burns evermore.

   But what is home? I hear them say,
   This never was yours anyway,
   You have no birthright to this place,
   Descendant from another race,
   An immigrant? A pioneer?
   You are no longer welcome here.

   Whoever said that love makes sense?
   "I love" is an "imperfect" tense,
   To love in vain has been man's fate,
   From history to present date,
   I have no grounds for dispensation,
   I know I have no home or nation.

   For just one moment in the night,
   I am complete, my soul takes flight,
   For just one moment then it's gone,
   And I am once again undone,
   Never complete never whole
   White skin and an African soul.

 

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